GOING UNDER (MARILLION)

Is it wrong to talk to myself even when thereīs nobody else
Iīm just checking now that Iīve not gone under the water or
thrown on the beach like a seal ready fpr slaughter
Canīt you understand that the way things were planned
it never worked out so I just went crazy
I took to the drink like something say its "maybe"

I ainīt got no excuse and thatīs really the news
I got nothing else to say, except itīs my way
Itīs always my way I seem to be running away so often
Iīll try anything once and thatīs the way we should be
but its always the same getting caught up again
in a habit, a habit that I just canīt shake off
the way it always turned out

can you understand itīs the way I choose to be
everything seems so easy this way but Iīm going under fast,
Iīm slipping away, am I so crazy